Breathe...

Well it’s NOVEMBER which means NaNoWriMo!!! *WooooT WooooT* I have already started working on my novel and hooked already…although it did take me a while to get going….like only 300 words in an hour!!! I mean come on! That’s just BAD!! And now I’m writing a blog… *raised eyebrow and shaking head* …trying to figure out why I’m writing a blog when I have a novel to work on!? Maybe, just maybe it’s because I’m not stressed about reaching 50 000 words in 30 days because I know I have the week off work next week and don’t have much planned so I can push through the novel all day long instead of from the minute I get home after work till my brain shuts down around midnight.

Anyway, last week I really struggled with my asthma. I was coughing, wheezing, spluttering and just not coping well most of the week. It made me realize that man does not breathe independently. We only breathe because of our Maker and because He lets us.

I take it, if you are reading this blog that you are busy inhaling and exhaling air…if you weren’t you’d be blue in the face or perhaps lying face down on the floor….dead. Yet we go about breathing without realizing it…and then, when your asthma hits or something else happens, we realize just how much we rely on our Maker in order to breath.

Then it amazes me to think that it’s a lot easier for God to create heaven and starry hosts than it is for me to take a simple breath.

Psalm 33:6 & 9 says:

vs6 By the word of the Lord were the heavens made, their starry host by the BREATH of his mouth.

vs9 For he spoke, and it came to be; he commanded, and it stood firm.

How easy it was for the Lord to make the most ponderous orbs, the most glorious angels, only by a few words…by His breath. Just think of all those things that amaze you, those things that we stand and admire or are in aw of…wow…yeah, our God is great – for He spoke and it came to be.

Anyway, just another random blog. I think I’m going to work on my novel. You might not get another blog from me until I’ve reached my 50 000 words before the end of the month….so until then, be blessed folks.

The Lord who remains faithful forever....

“Great is Thy faithfulness! Great is Thy faithfulness!

Morning by morning new mercies I see.

All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;

Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!”

I found myself singing this last night as I realized, yet again, how faithful God is.

Just over three months ago I had surgery. Since February I had been fighting with the medical aid wondering why they would not pay for a surgery that my doctor and surgeon said was needed. In June they finally agreed to pay half of the surgery. I took a step into the unknown and had the surgery in July with a conscious worry at the back of my mind, how am I going to pay for my half?

Then after the surgery came the battle, yet again, with the medical aid that now were not paying what they agreed too and I found myself helpless in a situation where I didn’t know what to do and found myself consumed with worry that gave me many hard days to work through. The only thing I could do was trust that my God will provide all my needs.

Philippians 4:19

“And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.”

And that is exactly what my God did. So much has happened in the last 2 weeks that last night, as I lay in bed, I realized God’s faithfulness to me even when I doubted and let Him down. God has provided for my need that as of yesterday, the surgery is completely paid for. PTL!

God provided in a way that amazes me and I find myself awed by it. And not only that, but by His timing too. There are a few things I’m really struggling with at the moment and wondering if God will pull through….and now I can remind myself in this hard time that God IS faithful, because He just proved it in one area, and that I just need to trust and know that His timing and plan is everything.

Psalms 146:5-6

“Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob,

whose hope is in the Lord his God,

the Maker of heaven and earth,

the sea, and everything in them –

the Lord, who remains faithful forever."

Trials....

Sometimes in life, we come across stuff we don’t want to face. We try to ignore it in hope that it disappears or doesn’t happen….and unfortunately the day comes when you realize there is nothing you can do. I seem to be having a lot of those things cropping up lately that I wish I didn’t have to face. Kinda wish I could sleep and not wake up till a long time afterwards. Good thing God doesn’t let us do that or I would forever be asleep and miss all His plans for me. Knowing God is in control is great and encouraging, but doesn’t always make it easy.

This past week was a bit of a rough one with a lot of stuff coming up and getting to me. There were things I was looking forward too, things I weren’t. There were a couple of nights….ummm….mornings when I couldn’t sleep cause things running through my head. I pushed myself a gym in hope of letting go of frustration and tiring myself out that I would climb into bed at night and pass out. That failed me, by the way.

Unfortunately there is nothing I can do about the various trials I face…big or small. But I can try and be happy (which actually sounds crazy) because The Bible says:

My brothers and sisters, consider it nothing but joy when you fall into all sorts of trials, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance.

James 1:2-3

So anyway, these thoughts came to me this afternoon as I sat outside for a few minutes alone…although there were kids running around me….looking at the moon.

I did have one good laugh today. My niece apparently went to my brother and said, “Dad, when is Aunty Jacks getting a husband because I want more cousins.”
No pressure right??? Ha ha ha ha…..