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Gosh, I was kinda shocked when I saw the last time I wrote a blog... ...I was so sure I had written another one...probably did and just never got round to posting it.So its November!!! NaNoWriMo!!! Yes, I have signed up to do it AGAIN and reopen my mind and be stretched. Why? I do not know. I must be a sucker for punishment.
October was a month of many challenges, frustrations but mainly stress. The month started off with an assignment due on the 3rd. What a mission, I had to work on it while on holiday. I laughed the one night while on holiday because I realised I was on holiday with my boss and his family, my invigilator for my exam and his family...and then my sister and her family....ONLY ME RIGHT!??? HA HA HA...good thing I get on with all of them. Anyway, beginning of October was fun, I got to go see Coldplay with my brother and my cousins....was great fun. But the fun soon ended. We had one of our biggest schedule changes at work, at least since it's been roped into being part of my new job description. It took me a few attempts to do the schedules for the staff (up to version 3 due to some late changes) and about a week and a half to make the changes in BOS. Once that was done I had to do the reports that had been left on the back-burner. The week after that was our partners conference which I had to film and do a couple of interviews. I left home at 7am and got home after 9pm Monday through Wednesday, Thursday we ended round 4pm and Friday was a day of meetings. To top that week off, the stress of knowing that the very next Monday was my exam...so the week before my exam I didn't get ANY studying done! And that was this past Monday....so yeah, October was HECTIC and STRESSFULL. I think I passed my exam....time will tell. So I went straight from studying like mad on the weekend, to writing the exam Monday to beginning my novel yesterday (Tuesday)... ...clearly a sucker for punishment.
There have been many things on my mind and often find myself asking God why? Why? When? How much longer does this have to go on? Studying for my exam, which for those who don't know, was a bible overview course, I learnt quite a bit pretty much about the whole bible, since you work through the whole bible, and on Sunday, as I really felt down because I wasn't remembering some of the stuff, I landed up doing Philippians suddenly and the theme for Philippians is: EXALT Christ in ALL circumstances. That was hard cause I really felt like I was about to head into an exam and fail horribly and I was like, Lord, how can I exalt you and rejoice when I feel like this? For three weekends I put aside plans to meet with people, to not go to EBC Sunday evenings and even not going to church that day so I could study and yet it felt like it was for nothing. Man, I must let God down a lot....how He can still love me is a miracle in itself. So even though I was frustrated Sunday, I had a new hope in me on Monday, even though I still wasn’t sure I was going to pass, but God lifted my heart through friends who had more confidence in me than I did. I got sms's, messages on Facebook, Twitter and prayer from my invigilator and his wife before the exam....and for the first time in October I felt peace...the very last day of the most hectic month this year for me, God granted me peace despite my frustration with everything.
Anyway, we learn daily right? I'll try write again soon....maybe from the beach next!! I'm heading to Mossel Bay for my annual holiday early this year and its also an early birthday present as my brother and his family are paying for me to fly down. I have such an amazing family!!
Blessings all.
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