Thankful...

Sometime life seems to get away from us, at least for me, and I find it hard to be "happy" because things are not going "right" even though, in some way, things are.
Last week was a rough week. Stiff neck, sore shoulders and killer headaches all week make it a long rough week, specially when it feels like other things are also all against you. I had decided, about a month or two ago to try something: every night list things I'm thankful for.
It took off well, and then, as with some things with me, I forget to do it or it dies....but over the past few weeks I've been determined to thank God for things....even last week, when things were tough, I had lots to be thankful for...
*Coffee and a good chat with a good friend Friday night
*Painkillers (yes, I was extremely thankful to whoever discovered them - specially a 'migraine fix')
*Family who love me
*Walks with a friend in lunch breaks
*A sister who spoils me
*A quietish weekend
*A big holiday in a few months
*Coworkers who can make you laugh
.....Just to name a few.
It will be something I will continue to try and do daily - and honestly, sometimes it surprises me after a BAD day how many GOOD things one can actually mention in thanks....

......GIVE it a try too!

Copyright © J Robus



Some kind of wild....

So a week into 2012...it's been an up and down week with tears and laughter. I'm still on leave for a few more days and think I'm ready to go back and face the hecticness of the month or two ahead. I think its the first time I feel RELAXED... ...the fact that I'm reading my third book in two weeks can vouch for that...since I'm not really a reader.... ...odd I know.

So my sister and I embarked on our annual trip to Krugersdorp to visit our friends at the Lion and Rhino park. I love this annual trip for a few reasons:
a) I get to spend the day with my sister and her kids,
b) I get to practice my manual focus photography on my SLR, and
c) I get to enjoy God's creation.

We had fun this year...then we always do and even got caught in a thunderstorm. I walked past 6 ostriches with my niece on my shoulders so that we would appear bigger than them so they wouldn't attack us... ...it was something I learnt as a kid, if you come across an ostrich, make yourself as big as you can... ...so since my niece and I both needed the bathroom which these 6 ostriches happened to be 'guarding', I went forth with my sister and nephew in the car, probably laughing their heads off, but the ostriches did leave us alone.

So, I thought I'd share some photos for ya'll...

That's how we felt at the end of the day!

I think Zebra's have such character...

One of the ostriches!

I like this one....Male lion coming towards us in the thick grass!!

Our one eared wild dog... ...shame, he ate last. Clearly the loss of an ear shows something about him.

2012

So its 2012....an hour and ten minutes into it for me. I sit here in the dark with dear Jark, who has been my 'venting ear' of late, listening to the fireworks/firecrackers outside. I'm not sure why, but then maybe deep down I do, but this “festive season” hasn't felt very festive to me. Honestly, my attitude towards the end of December and more specifically the New Year has been “so what”? It's another day. Another year where you hope things will happen....blah blah blah....

I sometimes wonder if its just me who always scrutinises the past year and thinks of what a failure I've been...or its been....even though I also know, deep down inside, that that is not necessarily true. Am I just hard on myself that every year that passes I think of things I should have done better or wonder what I did wrong that things didn't go to 'plan'? Do I set to higher standards for myself and then get annoyed when things don't go to 'plan'? Or is it because I feel I hope and then feel prayers don't get answered? Anyway, I don't know the point of this blog...probably cause I'm tired and I'm scrutinising life again....

 It's everything you wanted, it's everything you don't

 It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed

 Some prayers find an answer

 Some prayers never know

 We're holding on and letting go

This is Jark watching House MD